Soundtrack

This isn’t just a playlist, it’s a diary in melody.

Here you’ll find the songs I’ve written from the rawest parts of myself, paired with tracks that echo the same ache, fire, and hope.

Every original I share includes a vibe check: songs that carry the same emotional weight, the same sting or softness. Because sometimes, the only way to explain a feeling… is through a sound that cuts just right.

If you’ve ever felt too much and still not enough —
Welcome to the soundtrack.

Don’t Wanna Want You

Category: Original Song/Lyrics

Intro:

I met him with the intention to date.
We clicked. We laughed. We got close.
But somewhere along the line, the storyline shifted.
He saw friendship.
I still hoped for more even though he never chose me.

And I stayed. I keep staying.
Even when it hurts.
Even when I know this dynamic isn’t enough for the parts of me still hoping for more.
Because I’m always the one good enough to be around, but never enough to be loved back.

This song came out of that ache.
The push and pull, the closeness and distance, the wanting and knowing better.
It’s messy. It’s honest. And it’s mine.

-K

[Verse 1]
I tell myself I’ve had enough
But one late text still feels like love
You pull me close, then push away
And leave me torn—should I stay?

I care too much, it always shows
You give just enough to not let go
I try to leave, but then I freeze
Caught between my heart and what I need

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna want you, but I do
Can’t break free, no matter what I do
Don’t wanna stay, but I can’t let go
Keep falling back when I should say no
I don’t wanna ask, ‘cause I know the truth
Don’t wanna keep breaking just to love you
No, I don’t wanna
Yeah, I don’t wanna want you

[Verse 2]
You draw me in, then fade away
Say all the things that make me stay
You make it hard to walk out clean
When you’re the only love I’ve seen

I know you care, at least a bit
But never quite enough to commit
Your words sound right, but still I doubt
Stuck between staying or walking out

[Bridge]
Just when I think I’m over you
You say one thing and pull me through
You make me feel, then make me doubt
You’re all I want—and I can’t walk out

[Final Chorus]
I don’t wanna want you, but I do
Can’t shake the hold I gave to you
Don’t wanna stay, but I can’t break free
Still holding on when you’re not choosing me
I don’t wanna hope, but I still believe
That maybe one day you’ll be what I need
No, I don’t wanna
Yeah, I don’t wanna want you
I don’t wanna want you
But I do
God, I do

Vibe Check:
If you’re feeling this song, here are a few tracks that carry the same energy:
“Leave the Pieces” – The Wreckers
“Complicated” – Carolyn Dawn Johnson
“Jar of Hearts” – Christina Perri